it is so easy to forget and take for granted what is always around. today, once again i have learned that we should always appreciate what we have, to cherish and treasure, as we never know when they will be lost, never to return, leaving only regret, grief and an aching emptiness. you never truly feel, how much something means to you, till its gone.

memories of when he used to hum, teach me rhymes, telling stories and stealing ice-cream for me keeps replaying over and over. memories i will cherish. i regret to say, that i haven’t had the chance to tell him how much he meant to me. to say thank you.

he wasn’t of family, yet he might as well have been.
uncle sam, this is for you:

u have always been there
to catch me when i fall
to make me laugh when i sulk
never once leaving me out
though i wasn’t of family

for being my partner-in-crime
buying ice-cream, and small gifts
persuading aunt june,
that breaking the porcelain doll
wasn’t my fault

taking me out
to the goddamn far park
keeping pace with my running feet
though u could barely walk smoothly
never once complaining

teaching me to play chess
with the patience of a saint
sometimes letting me win
when im down
just to cheer me up

being my babysitter
annoying as i was
though u didn’t have to
allowing me to bug you
even while watching those chinese movies
that you enjoy so much

i regret
not taking the time
to talk more when im there
for sometimes throwing tantrums
i knew i was wrong
yet never thought to apologize
im truly sorry

i know you have suffered
not truly happy
after aunt june passed away
because unlike others of your time
you married out of love

yet you kept it locked inside
never once making us worry
only caring about others

uncle sam,

thank you for everything
without you, i wouldn’t be who i am today

thank you
for saying you’re proud of me
even though my results sux

thank you
for supporting what i want to do

thank you
just for being there
when i need you

no matter what. you’ll always be family

rest in peace
god bless you

time passes ever so slowly

listening to the ticking of the clock

all i want is for this day to end

and reminiscing of the past

i’ve realised…

i can ever be so self-assured

filled with false confidence

simply to reassure myself

that i still have control of my life

i can no longer be protected

from the exclusion, heartache and despair

that is imposed

by people who have no life

love and friendship

can rarely co-exist together in a person

and just for that, i’ve learned

to appreciate those who could

finally i’ve realised

annoying siblings

does have its advantages occasionally

especially when they oh-so-accidently

dressed in Ralph Lauren and Polo

with a whole can of coke

felt alone, like a lone star on a moonless night?

lost control, and was carried away by the tide?

stopped dreaming, of what might have been?

lost hope, in the one you love?

got so bored, that you write junk like this?

for showing me what i’ve been missing

with my dear cousin (check out my eyebags - they’re horrible - ugh!)

my gorgeous mum

met a lot of unknown relatives.. at least i THINK they’re related..

anyways, got back like abt 11pm

but was damn tired, so fell asleep almost immediately

actually i’m not even sure why i’m posting this..

nothing much to say

‘cept THANX ADELINE NG HAN HUI!!!