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By Sherry, January 13, 2010 2:22 pm

I have this weird nagging feeling inside me, that i should put up an update.

The problem is, i don’t feel like doing one.

But then i felt guilt ridden once again for abandoning it - and it’s not like i have exams or assignments as an excuse anymore. Darn.

But really now, since its a personal blog, I have the right to not update if i don’t want to, right?

So why do i feel this urge and guilt to actually post something up?

Besides its not like ppl actually care what I write about - okay, so maybe you do - but i shall pretend that nobody cares anyways, just to soothe my conscious :P

And yet, knowing that there is something to posts - actually, a LOT of somethings - doesn’t help with the conscious soothing. And don’t you dare give me that look! I meant to!! i really did…. :(

So now you’re thinking “stfu and post up some pictures!” and I must agree that those might have been lacking - especially since the new year. but really now, do you know how long it takes to upload pictures??!! longer than 1 second thats what!

Oh dear, I’m quite ranty aren’t i? :(

So to update or not to update?

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You know what? this is an update already. So there.
Take it or leave it you annoying guilt bug >(

ps. im a genius.

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By Sherry, December 11, 2009 8:36 am

i’m 20.

hard to imagine. I feel…..

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By Sherry, October 28, 2009 1:07 pm

i hate this.

i hate being forced to make decisions between two options
because of negligence when both were originally available.

i hate knowing that one way or other i’d regret it.

i hate it when I thought it could’ve been done sooner.

i hate listening to advice that doesn’t really help at all.

i hate it when somehow or other, it ended up as ‘no help, its up to you’
when I feel like i have more to lose.

i really really hate this.

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Update:

Settled. It’s the 12th ppl!

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By Sherry, August 28, 2009 4:11 pm

My fever’s gone, but now I’m down with a sore throat… or dry throat… the ones which makes you feel like coughing all the time anyways. And then there’s that super big ulcer I woke up with this morning… :(

I know that people like Ren is gonna give me that look if he’s here. He’ll go “I told you so…!” with a smug smile on his face. And I’d have to sit there grinding my teeth (or maybe not with that ulcer -.-) hating to admit that he’s right.

But before I say anything in my defence, i have one statement to make:

CHOCOLATE IS INNOCENT
never ever blame the chocolate

I’ve been concerned about my weight gain recently though. No, i won’t tell you how much I weigh and those of you who are close enough to know, probably can guess it already anyways. It’s been a difficult winter (my first!) for me as I learned to deal with the cold and binge eating. Actually, I haven’t exactly dealt with it - it’s STILL cold… and i’m STILL binge-eating. But you get the point.

You see, I DID try…

However, I have been trying to eat healthy lately though - not that it’s really successful - but a few days a week is better than none right? I’m done with caffeine addiction and soda addiction. Yet time and time again I fail in the face of the ultimate challenge ever - chocolate.

But you know what’s strange? The moment you tell yourself that you’re on ‘diet’, you’re suddenly assaulted with images and names of things you can’t have in your mind. It spells out deprivation. And it makes you want it even more. It’s depressing really.

All the worst when out of the corner of your eye, you see that temptingly saucy little bar of chocolate or candy gently mocking you. If you listen hard enough, you can almost hear it saying “Ha-ha you CANNOT have me.. ha-ha!”. And you get this sudden urge to prove it wrong.

Maybe it’s true that I should get out more. Metabolism is at an awful low since I started hibernating. But the constant rain here doesn’t help either. Meh.

Perhaps it’s really just me with the poor discipline and self control.

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ps. Feature article due in a few hours. I’m not panicking - no matter how much I tell myself I should.

pps. Just got the menu list from Ivy (thanks heaps babes!). Eventful Meet & Greet dinner update next! (and yes, you’ll finally get to see a picture of me. For real.)

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By Sherry, August 21, 2009 9:11 am

It’s 8.33am, and I feel like crap (look like crap too, but that’s another story).
Not that there’s anything new there.

Haven’t been sleeping well lately. For some reason, I kept tossing and turning throughout the night. Not to mention the totally random dreams - the type which makes you go WTF?! when you wake up. And i wake up feeling like I never slept at all. Annoying.

On the plus side, someone bought me egg tarts. Which, okay, may not be a good thing exactly with the calories and sugar and stuff. But when you’re looking at good food, who cares about the technicalities… right? :P

This is totally random, but I feel like buying a hair curler. To curl my hair. And make my hair go all curly and shiny. I’m repeating myself aren’t I? wtf.

But then again, it’s not like I actually know how to use one. I have this strange fear of ending up looking like one of those old ah poh’s permed hairs. wtf. And I wonder how long does it actually take to curl one’s hair - especially one with thick hair. Not to mention I’m awfully lazy as well.

*sigh* And it’s not even cheap.

I just scratched my leg wtf and you know what?
My skin is so dry, it has scales. Not kidding.
I’m awfully dehydrated. Like a wrinkled prune. Like seriously.
Oh darling body lotion, where art thou?

Don’t nag. I know!!

I don’t even know what’s the point of this post.
It’s a gloomy morning. And I feel so stoned.
Maybe that’s it.

Meh. Bugger BCB.

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ps. Should I get a hair curler? =\

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Update:

I . HATE . CALCULATIONS
@#$%&#%*#@+!!!

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By Sherry, August 4, 2009 12:49 am

I’m young, inexperienced, annoying and just ever so immature. Its as if i could literally hear them headpalming themselves just wondering why is it that they have to put up with me. I caught those looks you know, those slightly dispassionate and chilly gaze you throw when you think i wasn’t looking. It’s like deja vu all over again.

That unfriendly feeling of consciousness i could most definitely do without. Unwanted yet used, like moving a pawn on those checkered boards. Not a knight even. Merely a pawn. Makes me wonder if i’m a black or a white?

An effortless promise, kind words of no meaning, leading down the senses into a dream. Unwilling to fall under another false sense of security, yet the will falters. As if once wasn’t enough.

You’re right, i’m definitely no risk taker. Perhaps i really should pull back and raise those crumbling bricks. This feeling of helplessness, to trust. I don’t know if i dare.

If its me, i wouldn’t want it either. Complicated much?

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By Sherry, May 18, 2009 1:25 pm

There are so many things that I seem to be missing out. It feels horribly strange not knowing anything, till its all over. A security blanket, a comfort zone gone - unwittingly leaving one’s emotions vulnerable. I’m afraid of the things I think and do, if its for the right reasons. Self doubts creeping in, fear rising. I’m afraid I don’t know me anymore. It’s a labyrinth up there, a total mess.

I’m not too sure that’s where I want to be.

A paper due by 5pm, and yet, here I am. I think I’m worried, but not for the right reasons. I’m worried about the fact that I’m not worried because let’s face it, I really should be worried, shouldn’t I? And I’m pretty sure that makes sense- just not to some people.

Some people call it a miracle. I agree it’s entirelly possible.

“You can’t just turn on creativity like a faucet. You have to be in the right mood.”
“What mood is that?”
“Last minute panic.”

-Calvin and Hobbes-

Yet, I’d still like to think of it as a personal achievement, an individual attribute. I wonder why I insist on inflicting such self torture, and I’m afraid to say, I don’t know.

Seems like there are so many things I don’t know now.

*I feel ugly today.

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Update:

Wondering if I should bring my laptop with me later and start on my IDM assignment. After all, those uni computers don’t have foodtoshop photoshop..

honestly, FOODTOSHOP??! ROFLmaoWTFbbq

Some people just cracks the shit out of me.

Okay, time to start on the Effective Comm paper.. which is due in 2 hours.
Don’t bother telling me - I know I’m awesome.

… foodtoshop. Lmao.

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