Category: Emo Sherry

Sugar-coated compromise

By Sherry, August 19, 2010 4:47 am

Before you ask, yes - this is another procrastination post.

I can’t help it. It just doesn’t feel right finishing up a paper without at least SOME procrastination no matter how close to the deadline I am. But its all good as long as its done right? :D

Pictures before I start ranting about my peeve of the day:

Went for an AFL game sponsored by the Uni a couple of Sunday’s back. Adelaide Crows vs. Western Bulldogs

The AAMI Stadium. Before the game. Before the rain.

Weather was nice initially. And then halfway through when the game was reaching suspense, it started raining heavily. And i can assure you, its already VERY cold at the AAMI stadium (it IS still winter after all…)  And it just gets worse when you’re wet shivering against the rather strong winds. The game was worth it though :)

A very blurry picture: Kel Zoe, Me, Derrick at our seats. before game. and before rain.

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At The Shed (aka cafeteria-like place where people go to celebrate?)
Diane, Tania, Sherry. After game. After rain.

I still don’t understand how people can’t take proper pictures using a normal digital camera set on auto mode. You kinda just have to focus and snap. Meh. -.-

Freezing cold day, but still an eye opening experience. I guess i do sort of understand whats the obsession with footy over here is all about now. I think I might even be a little hooked to it now. Haha. Go Crows!!!

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Was reading an update from an acquaintance of mine about how unfair it is for her when her mum decides to (finally!) take some control and made some decisions about her life - especially regarding her education. No more running hogshod all over town staying out all night every single day with no word for her mum waiting at home waiting for news. Playing the minx yet going all innocent when it suited (on second thought, this describes most, myself included. lol). Failing miserably at her studies, daydreaming and deciding rash decisions based on her whim. Not that she could afford it. Gradually corrupting herself, yet insisting that she’s smarter than that. Yeah right.

Don’t get me wrong. I love her to bits. Well not in that way obviously, but more like a sister. Although if its my sister for real, it wouldn’t have gone so far. Its been several days now since then and day after day, i see posts and updates whining and asking for sympathy, to the extent of asking if anyone would house her if she was to leave home. I guess that last update made me snap.

Love or no love, i can’t help but feel that she is one selfish whiny little brat. A year back, she was ranting about others, doling out advice on how one should conduct themselves in public. Loudly blasting them when she disapproves. Even going so far as to slightly backstab a mutual friend when she felt she was losing attention. I’ve kept my silence so far, but knowing all these, I can’t help but wonder what she said behind MY back. And somehow, you just knew that chances of it being something flattering is very slim.

Perhaps i’m just disappointed. I don’t know. Sometimes when you’ve known someone for 4 years, you’d hope that they’ll turn out okay. And watching her go down this path…

And yes, other than the fact that her mum phoned me and begged requested that i talk to her, its probably none of my concern. I’m just being nosy aren’t i?

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Rantings aside, its been one hell of a fortnight. What with the graduations, reunions and then more assignments. Its unusually quiet now with most of the noisiest people gone and less new people coming this way. I miss them, its true. Although its funny how all the nice people are gone and the annoying ones stayed back to further their studies. Probably cause the know they’d need more qualifications for their future employers to tolerate them. Meh.

I think I’m severely lacking sleep. My metabolism rates has gone down and i’m beginning to utterly believe that I’m starting to grow fat. And the increasing amount of chocolate needed to keep me happy is definitely a good indicator on that score. Skin is hopelessly pale as usual and my eyebags are beyond saving. I blame assignments and any drama involving him.

Please please share any remedies you know to get rid of dark eye circles??

Under lock and key

By Sherry, August 11, 2010 5:29 am


sometimes I wonder, where the key would lead me..

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Slowly one by one it all falls apart, not unlike a chain of domino blocks toppling. Its disconcerting when you somehow you’re viewing the worsening situation with alarming clarity from afar with a cynical mind. It’s like a voice in your head telling you not to be stupid, yet the urge is there to tempt fate again and again while desperately grasping on to what you hoped was solid.

You smile and laugh till your jaw threatens to unhinge.
You tease and tempt like you’ve not a care in the world.
You sulk and pout, pretending innocence to the drama that unfolds.
You put on your actor’s makeup and go on stage day after day.

Yet knowingly, as you rush headlong into the mire, a recollection of thoughts originally thought buried, resurfaces… and THAT is when you feel the pain you thought you’ve safely forgotten.

And the worse part is knowing deep inside that there’s nothing you can do about it now.

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And no, i’ve not gone mad. Yet.

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I don’t know whats gotten into me. Its 5.45am here and i’m still up wide awake writing emo shit. Bah! someone please knock some sense into me!

Being a delusional drama queen

By Sherry, June 26, 2010 3:46 am

Things have not been going great. Far from it in fact. And I myself am to blame. Probably.

There was another argument. Started with something trivial, as always. It seemed just so great a while back. And suddenly there’s a crack. No, more like a fissure, widening into a canyon. How did things spin out of control so quickly? Why is it so difficult?

I’m afraid. So very.

Serves me right for dreaming and wishing for things I knew were impossible. It’s time to let go of the childish fantasies of a kid and understand that I finally am, 21.

I’m an utter fool aren’t I?

One more night in Melbourne.

By Sherry, April 25, 2010 12:18 am

My flight back home is cancelled.
Im stuck for the night till the next flight tmr evening.
In Melbourne Tullamarine Airport.
Currently in Holiday Inn Melbourne.
Using the internet at the business centre.
TIger Airways fail. Epic fail.

*sigh*  

Melbourne was fun… and expensive.
DFO is big. You naughty temptress, you.
PIty the red purse, bleeding with sorrow.

Beautiful pictures, to be uploaded soon.
Pity you’re a bride in white when I wanted a black widow.
A GF you may be, marriage is a different story.

Shall go soak in the bathtub now to relieve stress.
Yays hot water. Boo wanna go home :(

Slowly day by day..

By Sherry, April 15, 2010 9:44 am

Slowly day by day
I held my tears at bay
Only to weep when night I lay

Slowly day by day
I watched the sunrise, sunset
and I felt you drifting away

Slowly day by day
silence greets
as our gazes meet

Slowly day by day
I gave up hope
while straining to cope

Slowly day by day
I’ll let you fly
before April turns to May

*picture credit to pinkparis1233 @deviantart

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Lazyness vs Guilt

By Sherry, January 13, 2010 2:22 pm

I have this weird nagging feeling inside me, that i should put up an update.

The problem is, i don’t feel like doing one.

But then i felt guilt ridden once again for abandoning it - and it’s not like i have exams or assignments as an excuse anymore. Darn.

But really now, since its a personal blog, I have the right to not update if i don’t want to, right?

So why do i feel this urge and guilt to actually post something up?

Besides its not like ppl actually care what I write about - okay, so maybe you do - but i shall pretend that nobody cares anyways, just to soothe my conscious :P

And yet, knowing that there is something to posts - actually, a LOT of somethings - doesn’t help with the conscious soothing. And don’t you dare give me that look! I meant to!! i really did…. :(

So now you’re thinking “stfu and post up some pictures!” and I must agree that those might have been lacking - especially since the new year. but really now, do you know how long it takes to upload pictures??!! longer than 1 second thats what!

Oh dear, I’m quite ranty aren’t i? :(

So to update or not to update?

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You know what? this is an update already. So there.
Take it or leave it you annoying guilt bug >(

ps. im a genius.

2-0

By Sherry, December 11, 2009 8:36 am

i’m 20.

hard to imagine. I feel…..

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