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By Sherry, August 28, 2009 4:11 pm

My fever’s gone, but now I’m down with a sore throat… or dry throat… the ones which makes you feel like coughing all the time anyways. And then there’s that super big ulcer I woke up with this morning… :(

I know that people like Ren is gonna give me that look if he’s here. He’ll go “I told you so…!” with a smug smile on his face. And I’d have to sit there grinding my teeth (or maybe not with that ulcer -.-) hating to admit that he’s right.

But before I say anything in my defence, i have one statement to make:

CHOCOLATE IS INNOCENT
never ever blame the chocolate

I’ve been concerned about my weight gain recently though. No, i won’t tell you how much I weigh and those of you who are close enough to know, probably can guess it already anyways. It’s been a difficult winter (my first!) for me as I learned to deal with the cold and binge eating. Actually, I haven’t exactly dealt with it - it’s STILL cold… and i’m STILL binge-eating. But you get the point.

You see, I DID try…

However, I have been trying to eat healthy lately though - not that it’s really successful - but a few days a week is better than none right? I’m done with caffeine addiction and soda addiction. Yet time and time again I fail in the face of the ultimate challenge ever - chocolate.

But you know what’s strange? The moment you tell yourself that you’re on ‘diet’, you’re suddenly assaulted with images and names of things you can’t have in your mind. It spells out deprivation. And it makes you want it even more. It’s depressing really.

All the worst when out of the corner of your eye, you see that temptingly saucy little bar of chocolate or candy gently mocking you. If you listen hard enough, you can almost hear it saying “Ha-ha you CANNOT have me.. ha-ha!”. And you get this sudden urge to prove it wrong.

Maybe it’s true that I should get out more. Metabolism is at an awful low since I started hibernating. But the constant rain here doesn’t help either. Meh.

Perhaps it’s really just me with the poor discipline and self control.

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ps. Feature article due in a few hours. I’m not panicking - no matter how much I tell myself I should.

pps. Just got the menu list from Ivy (thanks heaps babes!). Eventful Meet & Greet dinner update next! (and yes, you’ll finally get to see a picture of me. For real.)

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By Sherry, May 23, 2009 7:12 pm

Why can’t I do it?
I promised myself, knowing that I should, and therefore I would.

Then one mere thought, and resolve shattered.

Oh Sherry, why art thou so stubborn???!
thy should know thyself, your weaknesses and limitations
yet you never learn…
This is so annoying. Ish.

FTW Procrastination Nation!

I know I’m procrastinating.. again.
Don’t bother saying “I told you so.”

I’ve heard it so many times it doesn’t work anymore =(

… and darn, I think I’m hungry again

♦♦♦

So yeah, laptop dieded on me…
… after only 5 months…
@#$%&*censored*@#$%&

…and I am very very upset…
@#$%&*censored*@#$%&

…so upset that I am blogging in the computer lab…
…while having fries wtf…
…while halfway working on my foodtoshop photoshop assignment…
…and a case study…
…which is due…
erm… lets just say very soon…

wish me luck! :P

cz i’m seriously gonna need it ><

♦♦♦

loves:

ice-cream; cheesecake; good coffee; chocolates; egg tarts; shopping;
$20 heaters; Rachel Au and her fries; pimpdaddy; old uncle in Perth;
sleeping; procrastinating!

♦♦♦

ps. someone save me! this place is scary :(

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By Sherry, May 18, 2009 1:25 pm

There are so many things that I seem to be missing out. It feels horribly strange not knowing anything, till its all over. A security blanket, a comfort zone gone - unwittingly leaving one’s emotions vulnerable. I’m afraid of the things I think and do, if its for the right reasons. Self doubts creeping in, fear rising. I’m afraid I don’t know me anymore. It’s a labyrinth up there, a total mess.

I’m not too sure that’s where I want to be.

A paper due by 5pm, and yet, here I am. I think I’m worried, but not for the right reasons. I’m worried about the fact that I’m not worried because let’s face it, I really should be worried, shouldn’t I? And I’m pretty sure that makes sense- just not to some people.

Some people call it a miracle. I agree it’s entirelly possible.

“You can’t just turn on creativity like a faucet. You have to be in the right mood.”
“What mood is that?”
“Last minute panic.”

-Calvin and Hobbes-

Yet, I’d still like to think of it as a personal achievement, an individual attribute. I wonder why I insist on inflicting such self torture, and I’m afraid to say, I don’t know.

Seems like there are so many things I don’t know now.

*I feel ugly today.

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Update:

Wondering if I should bring my laptop with me later and start on my IDM assignment. After all, those uni computers don’t have foodtoshop photoshop..

honestly, FOODTOSHOP??! ROFLmaoWTFbbq

Some people just cracks the shit out of me.

Okay, time to start on the Effective Comm paper.. which is due in 2 hours.
Don’t bother telling me - I know I’m awesome.

… foodtoshop. Lmao.

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By Sherry, May 11, 2009 12:29 am

I really wonder if i know what i’m doing.

Nothing is ever what it seems. So many secrets, so many personalities, so many lies. Everyone has a secret - even if they’re unaware of it. Looks are deceiving, never seeing the glint of hidden claws… right till you start bleeding. It’s such a harsh place, the irony of a simple gesture.

It’s hard to admit, but everything seems like just a game. Lies, deceit, jealousy, pain and raw, sharp emotions. Some thrive on the drama, and some wither and die. And I’m getting a headache. Ugh.

Some have asked why I looked so relaxed, chill, calm, collected. Trust me, it’s the only way i’m retaining my sanity.

Time to relearn the game. Only one thing never changes: Gut feeling - it’s the only way to go.

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By Sherry, April 12, 2009 4:53 pm

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less travelled by,
And that has made all the difference.

-Robert Frost-

Looking back on some of the roads I’ve taken, all I can say is:

“Sometimes the road less travelled is less travelled for a reason.”

-Jerry Seinfeld-

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By Sherry, March 30, 2009 4:22 pm

I can’t help it.

Once again, i’m staring at the screen, wondering where the hell did i go wrong. Just one short moment of self-pity, one simple outburst of tears. Emotions come flowing out. Am I to allow myself this brief respite?

I’m not complaining. Indeed, I find life is even better than it was. So why the drama?

Listening, talking to those whom i held close, watching them going forward. Knowing they’ve moved on, losing past innocence. I feel envious, a slight raw anger followed by a slight tint of misery. All around me, I see them people, happily waving, arms entwined. Its an indulgence, i sorely miss.

But you know what? You can’t begrudge a girl for craving the comfort she used to have.

Merely a moment’s musings. Ignore.
Life goes on. And that is all that matters.

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By Sherry, January 13, 2009 6:18 pm

I don’t know what I’m thinking. I just feel as if everything is going past in a sudden blur of movement. Its as if everyone was charging on ahead, aware of their decisions, making the most of what life has to offer - and then, I looked at myself, and realized that I’m just a passive observer on the sidelines. Miserable ain’t it?

i know what you’re all thinking, and no, I’m not emo (much). Whatever I type out here wouldn’t sound right in the head anyways. Its all merely a jumbled mess of words - perhaps a slight reflection to my state of mind. Now, I told you not to worry didn’t I? Well, seeing as I’m the god damned smartass as some have called me, you really should listen to me.

Shit, okay so now I’m turning into a crackpot. Maybe its better if you all ignore me.

Yeah. I’m leaving in self-denial in addition to wallowing in self-pity. So sue me.

On a more serious note, who am I kidding anyway? I can’t afford a lawyer.