sherrymint

it’s true that I should probably update now that exams are over.
BUT its too cold. and I’m too lazy.
so bleh. live with it.

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when random moments of extreme boredom overwhelms
and you have little choice but to take up the cam
with the rain and the cold, now you know how bored i am!

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a sunset shot - the strongman in the wind.

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understanding the meaning of ’sin’

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…and finally my epic gift of a $4.95 frying pan from Ikea.
The epitome of Romance ♥

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It’s been an interesting half year :)

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been wondering though, do you think the colour of this theme is too depressing?
because i’m starting to feel that way. Love the layout, hate the colour.
what do you think? time for a change perhaps?

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Why can’t I do it?
I promised myself, knowing that I should, and therefore I would.

Then one mere thought, and resolve shattered.

Oh Sherry, why art thou so stubborn???!
thy should know thyself, your weaknesses and limitations
yet you never learn…
This is so annoying. Ish.

FTW Procrastination Nation!

I know I’m procrastinating.. again.
Don’t bother saying “I told you so.”

I’ve heard it so many times it doesn’t work anymore =(

… and darn, I think I’m hungry again

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So yeah, laptop dieded on me…
… after only 5 months…
@#$%&*censored*@#$%&

…and I am very very upset…
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…so upset that I am blogging in the computer lab…
…while having fries wtf…
…while halfway working on my foodtoshop photoshop assignment…
…and a case study…
…which is due…
erm… lets just say very soon…

wish me luck! :P

cz i’m seriously gonna need it ><

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loves:

ice-cream; cheesecake; good coffee; chocolates; egg tarts; shopping;
$20 heaters; Rachel Au and her fries; pimpdaddy; old uncle in Perth;
sleeping; procrastinating!

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ps. someone save me! this place is scary :(

I don’t know… its just funny!

lol. so whats YOUR version of the song?

There are so many things that I seem to be missing out. It feels horribly strange not knowing anything, till its all over. A security blanket, a comfort zone gone - unwittingly leaving one’s emotions vulnerable. I’m afraid of the things I think and do, if its for the right reasons. Self doubts creeping in, fear rising. I’m afraid I don’t know me anymore. It’s a labyrinth up there, a total mess.

I’m not too sure that’s where I want to be.

A paper due by 5pm, and yet, here I am. I think I’m worried, but not for the right reasons. I’m worried about the fact that I’m not worried because let’s face it, I really should be worried, shouldn’t I? And I’m pretty sure that makes sense- just not to some people.

Some people call it a miracle. I agree it’s entirelly possible.

“You can’t just turn on creativity like a faucet. You have to be in the right mood.”
“What mood is that?”
“Last minute panic.”

-Calvin and Hobbes-

Yet, I’d still like to think of it as a personal achievement, an individual attribute. I wonder why I insist on inflicting such self torture, and I’m afraid to say, I don’t know.

Seems like there are so many things I don’t know now.

*I feel ugly today.

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Update:

Wondering if I should bring my laptop with me later and start on my IDM assignment. After all, those uni computers don’t have foodtoshop photoshop..

honestly, FOODTOSHOP??! ROFLmaoWTFbbq

Some people just cracks the shit out of me.

Okay, time to start on the Effective Comm paper.. which is due in 2 hours.
Don’t bother telling me - I know I’m awesome.

… foodtoshop. Lmao.

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I suppose there are just some things that can’t be helped..

Sometimes we tend to forget, each life is their own.
Being human, we create ties and bonds - some more than others.

Ups and downs like a roller coaster ride, seldom easy, seldom nice.
But for what it’s worth, I guess its worth the price.

Learn to gain,
learn to lose.

Lesson learned.

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Update:

someone made me smile today
on a cloudy autumn day in May
i guess i just wanna say
you really made my day

thank you.

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Damnit. Why does it always comes down to this??

He says, She says, They think, You assume.

So where does that leave me???! Should I tailor my fucking awesome self to suit what you people fucking expect of me??!

It’s always the same. I look like that, so I MUST be like that. If i talk, i’m labelled as an attention seeker, and if i don’t, i’m a snob. wtf. And then I got smart, and i can tell you that I DON’T FREAKING CARE since its not like I can please everybody. It’s just too bad I refuse to be your mewling kitten who just strives to please your every whim isn’t it? just too bad the kitten grew up with claws… and just too bad I have a personality. Oh yeah, and it’s too bad i have a brain!

And here I am studying about brand repositioning and what shit. So based on you people the ‘customer’ who expects me to be what you expect me to be, is it time for me to ‘change the product and image to meet customer expectations’? Should I market myself as a skank, slut, bitch, attention seeker, shameless wannabe? Fuck it with the indirect remarks and assumptions. Be a man, or woman, or cow or hippo, just stop being a stinking coward and face me if you have something to say!

Geez, i can’t believe I’m even ranting here for this. You made me waste my time. Aweshum.

Bah.

I really wonder if i know what i’m doing.

Nothing is ever what it seems. So many secrets, so many personalities, so many lies. Everyone has a secret - even if they’re unaware of it. Looks are deceiving, never seeing the glint of hidden claws… right till you start bleeding. It’s such a harsh place, the irony of a simple gesture.

It’s hard to admit, but everything seems like just a game. Lies, deceit, jealousy, pain and raw, sharp emotions. Some thrive on the drama, and some wither and die. And I’m getting a headache. Ugh.

Some have asked why I looked so relaxed, chill, calm, collected. Trust me, it’s the only way i’m retaining my sanity.

Time to relearn the game. Only one thing never changes: Gut feeling - it’s the only way to go.